Better late than never.......I guess

Back in 2008 I attended a play by Tyler Perry. I heard this song and it immediately made me think of you and of a conversation we had once had.  You said you wished that you had more to give leave me when you died. (You were kinda morbid like that ...taking picture for your own obituary and whatnot..smh) Now I'm not the best singer by any means, but I said to myself, I'm going to sing this song for Dotyn. Every time I came to your house, I completely forgot and sadly I never got the chance to sing it for you. I some times sing it around the house and maybe you hear me, but if not......here you go. http://youtu.be/lp2ST7dDc6w. 

Thank you, and Happy Mother's Day.

Today.

Dear Dotyn,

I thought about you a lot today. More than usual. Maybe because Mother's Day is a few days away. Or maybe because today would have been your 80th birthday...

If you were still here, I would have called you from my desk and whispered-sang "Happy Birthday to You"... Actually, I think I would have waited until I got home so I could put Jack on the phone to help me sing to you too... (He's getting so big. You would have adored him...) I can see your smile right now, and how you would have nodded your head and bopped your arm along to our song. I can even hear how you would have laughed your signature laugh after we finished.

I miss you so, so, so much... It still hurts every day. And today more than most.

I love you, Dotyn. Happy Birthday.

Happy Birthday

I was going to write something happy and upbeat but the truth is.... I'm not happy! I'm sad and angry! I feel robbed. You were the best part of this family. I should be able to call you right now and sing you happy birthday. I miss you so much....... Happy Birthday Dotyn. I love you. :'(