Reminders of You

Dotyn, I'm reminded of you every day. Places I go, things I see... The impressions you've left on my life are all around me. I'll share pictures of those things that make me think of you here.

You've always been my protector and #1 fan. Even when I was wrong, you fought for me. Even in this picture, I can imagine you saying "Ya'll leave this baby alone. Here, I'll take her..."

You and Keisha. You were so beautiful. Always dressed to the doo-dabs (as you would say!). Just look at that red suit and matching hat...

I found this picture of us together at my wedding, and it made me smile. I remember being so happy that you came, and that you were a part of my day. You weren't sure if you would make it, because you weren't feeling well. But you did make it, and I was so proud to have you there. I could feel your presence in the room - it made one of the biggest days of my life all the more perfect. When you stood up to bless the rings, I was honored, but my favorite part of that day with you is one that I didn't even get to see. Keisha tells me that when you arrived at the hotel, you refused to go in on your walker. I imagined you getting out of the car and striding into the hotel, slowly but confidently navigating the entire length of the aisle and taking your seat up front with minimal assistance. THAT is my favorite "memory" of that day. Thinking of how strong and proud you were -- and had always been -- even in the face of pain and exhaustion. I wish I had talked to you more that day. I wish I had taken more pictures. I wish I could live that day all over again - not so that I could marry Tony again - but so I could sit and be happy and talk with you during one of the last celebrations we shared together. If I could go back, I know I would have spent more time. Hugged you a little longer. Told you i loved you a little louder. I guess it's easy to say these things in hindsight... but it doesn't make it any less true.